digging a deeper whole

why do I still feel this way?
so many years
longing, empty, aching

who am i
who am i really

rejecting all i have
rejecting all who love me

digging
digging

deeper
deeper

darker
darker
dark as night
dark as nothing
dark as death

deeper
deeper

then, a crack
a sliver
a glimmer
of
light

then, breaking through
into
luminous
brilliant
blinding
daylight

a deeper whole